March 22, 2009
Anyone ever been cucked early in life?
An early sexual experience can shape the way will behave and feel today. I can remember being at college and taking a kind of girlfriend at the time, Marie, out with some of my friends. I had known her a week or so and we had only kissed, nothing more. We all went clubbing and then headed back to one of my male friends house who had a caravan that we sometimes used to crash in as we all still lived with our parents. On this particular night there was about 5 of us in this caravan, some sleeping in bunks and some sleeping on scattered cushions and blankets placed on the floor. I was on my own in a smaller bunk, it could only really fit one person in so my girlfriend crashed on the floor amongst the cushions. I remember being awoken at about 5am, I was aware of movement, a kind of rocking motion in the caravan and some heavy breathing, it was so dark I couldn’t really see much but noticed that one of my mates Lee wasn’t in his bunk opposite, I then had this sickly feeling come over me as I realised what was going on. I strained my eyes and could just make out Lee on the floor on top of Marie. They had the blankets over them but they were obviously fucking. It was a strange feeling, a mixture of hurt, humiliation and jealousy. Nothing sexual was felt by me at the time. Being the kind of non-confrontational person I am, I didn’t do I thing. I just stayed still, my eyes transfixed on the shadowy shapes on the floor. I think there was always something voyeur in me even at the early age. After a few minutes more, I heard Lee let out a weak moan and the movement stopped momentarily. He then got up and I can remember glimpsing the outline of his cock in the gloom before he got back in his bunk. Marie remained on the floor and I heard her turn on her side. I never said anything the next day, not to her or Lee. I think there was something in me also that liked the fact I knew but they didn’t know I did. They both never mentioned it at all and after I took her home that day we never really saw each other again. Once or twice passing at college or occasionally out clubbing. I heard from friends that she had seen Lee a few times.
When I think back, I think this was one of a few instances that have shaped my hotwife cuckold kinks today. They just took a hell of a time to surface into anything sexual. But I often think about it now and it really turns me on. Oh if only I knew then what I know now..
Here’s another couple of examples of early cuckoldry, please feel free to post your own early experiences and thoughts in the comments section.
I’m a fairly young guy but my cucking started in high school. I was extremely nervous about sex and talking to girls. I am a decent looking guy but I was raised in a ultra conservative house in the bible belt and sex was very taboo. As such I didn’t have confidence with women and was too nervous to approach them or really even date. I was also perhaps hornier than average, I honestly masturbated at least 4 times a day, every single day (even today I ejaculate 3 times a day, every day). So when I finally got a girl to agree to have sex with me I was basically whipped. I was a sophomore and the girl was a few months older than me and very hot, but it turned out she was one of the easiest chicks in school. She was the one who asked me out. Of course I went in thinking it would be all roses and we would have the typical monogamous relationship. Of course it wasn’t in her nature. This was compounded by my lack of skills/experience in the bedroom. I tried arguing with her, reasoning, thinking if I treated her better she would change, breaking up, etc. But the allure of actually getting some (versus not get any), thinking she would change, and my low self confidence kept me coming back. Eventually I started basically putting up with, or ignoring her sleeping around. It was hell emotionally. The only problem was, while her sleeping around was making me extremely angry it also gave me an instant hard-on thinking about it. Of course this felt really wrong and left me feeling internally conflicted. It was a tough thing to go through as a teenager. We were together until a little after graduation then went our separate ways when college started. During that period she must have done at least 20 other guys (likely more). The sad thing is I never really got any good details out of it. I wish I knew what a cuckold was at the time, perhaps I could have gotten some details out of her. I heard several stories of her behavior from friends and she did some really wild things.
Written By: pnjnlove
The only difference between previous relationships and my current marriage is that now it’s being done with my consent. My very first girlfriend (I was 17, she was 16) went with another guy behind my back. Like a mug, I took her back. And then she did it again. My first “serious” girlfriend, who I actually lived with, slept with a ski instructor on holiday. We split up over it. My next serious girlfriend slept with her ex a few times, and brought one of her college lecturers (a man old enough to be her dad) back to fuck him in our bed, several times. Again, I adored her so much I forgave her, and took her back, and she did it again too. I wouldn’t tolerate it after that: it upset me too much. But my wife says she fell in love me because she recognised right away that I had the potential to be the kind of submissive guy she could manipulate to get her way, even though I didn’t think I was. At least she took the time and love to train me to her way of thinking, so I’d accept and enjoy her fucking other men. This is why I refer to what’s happening now as cuckolding, but past experiences as just plain cheating. Maybe my past experiences conditioned me, set a pattern for the future? It must have had some effect…
Written By - DevoT