March 14, 2009
Here’s a post today from a very good new friend of mine, Karyn. I have been blown away by this woman’s passion for the lifestyle and her writing. I’m really enjoying these posts lately on the psychology of the hotwife and cuckold lifestyle. A story can be great, pictures fantastic but writing like this really makes you think. It brings you out of those conventional thoughts of sexuality we all love to hide back within from time to time and opens our mind to thoughts and fantasies that drive us to that elusive goal of real sexual satisfaction. I hope this is the first of many Karyn. Enjoy…
Many times I am asked or told: do I like bareback; I will breed you; will you keep my child? There are many levels on which to answer these questions or reply to these demands. In fact it’s a dilemma for me… and if others are honest for every women. While safe sex requires no body fluid transfer, a woman’s make-up, wiring, and deep desires demands I fully receive you and your precious seed. One of the toughest moments for me is demanding condom use. My mind says Yes, Yes, Yes, but my inner Goddess, BADD girl womb says NOOO, NOOO, NOOO. I cry out to touch, hold tightly, engulf, and totally devour and be devoured by my lover. To place a barrier between us that stops procreation, tears at my secret and deep corner of my inner being and goes against everything my senses and instincts are calling me to do. OMG, how I want to feel you as you forcibly and fully slide deeply into me. To know you are really and intimately in me, not pretending by to f_ck me by just thrusting in and out of me, but to be fully possessing me and instinctively taking me, yes, breeding me. This brings on in me a sensual esctasy like nothing else and this is what separates casual, ho-hum (everyday married) sex from mind-blowing, body-numbing, total slut goddess sex. If stimulated, my luscious, ever SOOO delicious primal animal behavior overcomes my judging, conscious mind and at that moment will outweigh and nullify all the potential risks and dangers of bareback, breeding/baby-making sex with a lover other than my husband. My entire body, womanhood, and baby-desiring ovaries scream out hungrily, greedily for your potent, hot needed seed to fill and take over my womb… I know most women never talk about this because it’s not pc nor is it pro- feminist but we all have this need - don’t let anyone tell you otherwise- we are born with this instinct, this craving…once we are aroused.
Once aroused, my behavior and judgment is TOTALLY different, whether it’s from the eroticism and pleasure I feel, the deliciousness of the nastiness and naughtiness of cuckold sex, being taken and controlled, or a drugged effect from the release and intoxication of my brain with oxytocin (the bondong hormone). To be honest I don’t know and I don’t care. It feels SOOO incredibly WONDERFUL and IRRESTIBLE. With exception of an occasional women’s magazine article, I bet you never hear a woman tell you how badly she craves and needs to f_ck a new lover after they do it. I have read that it’s the oxytocin - the same hormone that’s released with nursing to help bond mother to child also is released with intercourse with a new lover. For whatever reason they say it stops being released after 3-9 months in a sexual relationship (old lovers, like husbands, LOL). I didn’t know that before but always thought I was weird when I had a new lover I couldn’t keep my mind off f_cking them again and spent the days anxiously, wildly try to hook up again ASAP. I needed IT SOOOO BADDLY, SOOO mUCH!!! Between the heightened excitement and passion from the secrecy and naughtiness and the hormonal drunkenness I become I real SLUT, but a HOT, sensuous, delicious slut - craving your seed, feeling pride in being called another man’s cumwhore.
I REALLY luv it as I drive home after f_cking my lovers, my panties soaked with my lovers seed dripping down my legs- still warm and mixed with pussy juice from my sopping pussy… frequently I can’t help fingering myself as I drive, alternating between rubbing my lips and stroking my clit and pushing your hot seed back deep into my womb, causing me to explode in sexual ecstasy as I know your cum is deep inside me, in me, impregnating me, breeding me about to cause my previously flat and toned belly to swell with your child in it…
OK, that’s the sexy part. Now the other side of the discussion. When I go to a sexual rendezvous I am sexually excited, giddy, ever so horny, and very wet with my conscientious mind in control if just barely. Once we meet and the fireworks start and if you push the right buttons what I described above happens - the most incredible sex I know And yes I’ll be driving home with your potent seed deep in my womb… But within hours to a day or so, my conscientious mind will be back in control and I will have doubts, anxiety, and possibly fear of both pregnancy and disease - the risks my delicious primal animal behavior mind (SLUT GODDESS) nullified. Yes, the conscientious thoughts and feelings do return. The more you play around the less they bother you but they are still there. And that’s the dilemma. How to merge and live with the disparity? One compromise is to play out parts of the perfect, always desired mind-blowing sex scenario (the one described above) and not do the whole thing, in total, as described. I must know are you disease-free and can I risk a pregnancy by you. Let’s be honest do you (and I too) really want a long-term connected (by child) relationship or just UBER INCREDIBLE sex. I bet you said the sex. So let’s see where and how we compromise and still achieve our goal. Thus, role play seems to be a practical, and I am embarrassed to say sensible solution, as I don’t like being sensible.
OK, I don’t want to leave you bummed out so let me get back into my SLUT GODDESS state: OMG… I’m SOOO tingling and achy as I write the above…. where is your HOT, HARD cock and giant cumload when I need it?? LIKE NOW !!! Lets’ be good and you just put your cockhead in me, sliding it up and down my wet and sticky pussy lips, for us both to feel what’s it like and then remove it before you are too excited, BUT if we do, I wish, envision, silently plead that you will not listen to me and take it out but push that massively engorged cock deeper and forcefully into me, past my massively swollen and tender inner pussy lips and ever so deep into fertile womb. Your fat, swollen, iron bar-like cock stretches me, forcing itself deeper and deeper, pounding me, stretching, straining, yes slightly tearing me as I cry out for me for YOU, cry out to be taken, stripped of my self worth, my propriety and become a raw, nasty, baby-making cum dumpster, insatiable cock craving slut… As I write this I am about to cum… dreaming that you are fucking me… Yes, more than just bareback, more than just without a rubber… Your beautiful dick glistening with pre-cum is fucking me totally unprotected. Having wanted to give my whole self to you, to fully connect, and to have no barriers between us so we can truly be one. I came to you today and give myself without any form of birth control onboard… I have taken no pills for the past two months, and have been using condoms with my husband. I start crying in pleasure, in ecstasy reveling in our special nasty and forbidden connection and intimacy, and in the erotism of being a GOOD BAD girl, a real live slut, who is actually just a totally uninhibited lover who knows and can’t resist the erotic power breeding and impregnation brings. WOW - just writing this and playing with myself was as good as sex with my husband, LOL….. MUAH!!!
Feel better? Love to hear your thoughts and feelings. I mean it! Let’s get this party going!
Submitted by Karyn - Florida - Check out her profile on hotwifedating here