February 24, 2009
This is bit of confession and slightly rambling so I apologize ahead of time. There is no detailed escapade here but merely a real husband trying to help his wife. I know something that my wife does not yet realize. I know my wife is not sexually fulfilled by me and I know exactly what she needs. She needs a big cock. She is a stunning strawberry blonde, 5′7, athletic fit, extremely intelligent. We’ve been together for only three years.
I knew she wanted something bigger from the first time that I had sex with her. I’ve had sex with plenty of other women but the way she moved her hips and I felt inside of her I could tell that this woman has been thoroughly fucked and my six inches was not enough. She’s the first woman that I’ve been with that doesn’t make a noise when I enter her because she can’t really feel it. She can’t even tell if I came in her pussy. During the first year, she always would tell me that I’m not positioned right or I’m not going in the right angle. I knew the real reason is that I am not big enough for her. Over the course of our dating, I learned that she’s been with about 30 different men from the time she was sexually active at 18 to today (she is 38). I know somewhere along the way she must have had some bull just fill her up. I’ve been coming to Hot Wife Blog for the past year and reading all of these stories about real husbands and wives who have a deep commitment to each other to the point that they can be completely honest about their sexual satisfaction. It has inspired me over the past year to embark on a slow process to experiment with my wife and in the end hopefully unlock the sexual energy that I know exists.
The first thing was to use toys. Thank god for Sex & City for making toys in the bedroom mainstream. I started off with small things, a bullet, to see how that would go over. It was great. We gradually progressed to The Rabbit and eventually I bought a seven inch pink dildo. She loves The Rabbit and comes very quickly. We did a DP once with the dildo in her pussy and she came instantly but most the time the dildo didn’t feel great. However, I still thought that she could take and enjoy something bigger inside of her.
We’ve had a slight detour and a complicating factor psychologically on her part: eight months ago she had a baby. Her self-esteem is low and her perception of her body is far from sexual. So right now things are buried down pretty far. To get us back on track, I ordered the Mr. Marcus dildo which is the most realistic toy I’ve ever seen, plus it makes me realize how small I am. At first sight she was horrified by it. I also made the mistake of shoving it too fast and not working it in. She told me never to use it again and she was tired of being used as a science experiment. Then last weekend…
I gave her a full body massage and went down on her. As I licked her all around, I reached from under the blanket and took the Mr. Marcus toy and slowly started to tease her lips. Her hips starting moving in ways that I’ve never seen. It was unbelievable. She started working herself onto the big black cock and before I knew it she took the whole thing inside of her. As soon as that happened, her entire body started to shake and she nearly passed out. When she recovered, she asked me what I used and I showed it what it was and she had a look that I’m sure others here have seen: I want it for real. I quickly jumped on top of her and came inside her within a few minutes.
My theory was verified. The question now is… what’s next. I think she does want it for real but of course is torn between her own views of marriage/fidelity and her sexual desire. I feel the conflict. How could she face her friends or family if she gives in to these desires? Does this make her a bad mom or a bad person? Is it a sin?
More importantly what I need to help her with is to first make sure that she is fully sexually confident. I have a role-playing strategy that I hope someone out there can help me with:
She loves massages and regularly goes to the Four Seasons and the Mandarin. She used to have a private masseuse come to our home but he’s moved away. I would love for a man to come to our house and play the part of a massage therapist. I want him to play it straight. During the course of the massage, I want the man to start rubbing the inside of her thighs slowly grazing her lips and clit. Making sure she is relaxed and comfortable the whole time. If she is, then he can start making comments on how gorgeous she is and that she has an unbelievable body. Who knows what happens from there but I think it will set her on the path to rediscovering her power. If there are any males in the DC area that would be willing to play this role, please let me know. We could also do it at a bar or club with someone who can approach her or buy her a drink.
Also, we will be in NYC this weekend and can arrange perhaps a meet in a bar or a massage in our hotel.
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