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Cucks from a Psychological Point of View

Like to start a thread for anyone interested in delving deep into the heart and mind of a cuck from a psychological point of view. Many of us are diverse and complex. I for one am still trying to figure out why I tick a certain way. I have a strong need to understand all the why’s..??

I am sure there are some that have been cucks for a short period of time, others live the lifestyle off and on and some live as a cuck for years. I invite all of you and Cuckoldresses who truly understand the complexities of our deepest desires to share your insights, psychology and thoughts.

Basically a Q&A.

Let me start off with the first question that has been on my mind for years.

I have read here and other sites that many cucks are not present while the wife is with her Bull. For some reason the thought of this to me is unbearable. To me it would seem more like an affair than being cucked, if I was not there. It would drive me nuts to be by myself while she is out getting fucked. I know some cucks get phone calls and listen that way. But I am not sure I could even handle that. I simply could not ‘risk’ the loss of my wife to another. So this is obviously a control issue I have, even though I try hard to be a submissive in my relationship, with my wife.

I’ve Been married for over 20 years. I think I am past the trust part. Lets face it; one thing that I have learned is that my wife is capable of things I never imagined. Just when you think you know someone you find out that you really never knew them at all. Time changes people.

But I know that even if my wife were to stray it would be only temporary. Its hard to give up 20 years of lifes experiences with someone. The level of trust and love after this many years cannot be duplicated by a brief or semi-long term romance. It takes the same amount of years to regain the place-of-trust that took so long to earn, to begin with.

Mature relationships tend to understand this. Big losses for each party. However since most marriages don’t last but a few years these days, if that, one never experiences the true value of long-term love and commitment. Therefore Big losses are not realized.

I guess maybe I need to be there because if I am not then I will miss out on the type of love I desire from her, sexual humiliation. To have her come home and give me all the details is not the same as watching the movie in real time, I guess. Maybe it appeals to my masochistic side.

On the other hand the wife may not want the husband there because she cannot relax or the Bull might not be able to perform (get it up and keep it up) with some hubby lurking in the midst.

But for me I need to be there. I need to see the face of my wife enjoying another man cock more than mine. I need to see her lovers larger cock being engulfed by my wife pussy and hearing her have orgasms. I need her to look at me while she is enjoying herself knowing that she is comparing me to him and lets me know how much more a real mans cock feels so much better than mine and that I can never please her and this is the reason why she fucks other guys. Anyways you get the picture. Total Humiliation.

The funny part is that I don’t get jealous. Actually I am sexually satisfied mentally. I truly desire the feeling of sexual humiliation. I don’t know where this comes from. I wish I knew why?

After the event I can go on with life like nothing ever happened BUT if I was NOT there it would drive me insanely jealous and I would be worried that my wife was cheating on me behind my back. A fear of betrayal would always be present in the back of my mind.

Can anyone share some insight or if you have similar feelings, let me know. Or if anyone has other questions please ask those as well whether they are related to this question or not.

Submitted by: Waystar

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