March 22, 2009
Early Cuck Experiences
Anyone ever been cucked early in life?
An early sexual experience can shape the way will behave and feel today. I can remember being at college and taking a kind of girlfriend at the time, Marie, out with some of my friends. I had known her a week or so and we had only kissed, nothing more. We all went clubbing and then headed back to one of my male friends house who had a caravan that we sometimes used to crash in as we all still lived with our parents. On this particular night there was about 5 of us in this caravan, some sleeping in bunks and some sleeping on scattered cushions and blankets placed on the floor. I was on my own in a smaller bunk, it could only really fit one person in so my girlfriend crashed on the floor amongst the cushions. I remember being awoken at about 5am, I was aware of movement, a kind of rocking motion in the caravan and some heavy breathing, it was so dark I couldn’t really see much but noticed that one of my mates Lee wasn’t in his bunk opposite, I then had this sickly feeling come over me as I realised what was going on. I strained my eyes and could just make out Lee on the floor on top of Marie. They had the blankets over them but they were obviously fucking. It was a strange feeling, a mixture of hurt, humiliation and jealousy. Nothing sexual was felt by me at the time. Being the kind of non-confrontational person I am, I didn’t do I thing. I just stayed still, my eyes transfixed on the shadowy shapes on the floor. I think there was always something voyeur in me even at the early age. After a few minutes more, I heard Lee let out a weak moan and the movement stopped momentarily. He then got up and I can remember glimpsing the outline of his cock in the gloom before he got back in his bunk. Marie remained on the floor and I heard her turn on her side. I never said anything the next day, not to her or Lee. I think there was something in me also that liked the fact I knew but they didn’t know I did. They both never mentioned it at all and after I took her home that day we never really saw each other again. Once or twice passing at college or occasionally out clubbing. I heard from friends that she had seen Lee a few times.
When I think back, I think this was one of a few instances that have shaped my hotwife cuckold kinks today. They just took a hell of a time to surface into anything sexual. But I often think about it now and it really turns me on. Oh if only I knew then what I know now..
Here’s another couple of examples of early cuckoldry, please feel free to post your own early experiences and thoughts in the comments section.
Trash
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I’m a fairly young guy but my cucking started in high school. I was extremely nervous about sex and talking to girls. I am a decent looking guy but I was raised in a ultra conservative house in the bible belt and sex was very taboo. As such I didn’t have confidence with women and was too nervous to approach them or really even date. I was also perhaps hornier than average, I honestly masturbated at least 4 times a day, every single day (even today I ejaculate 3 times a day, every day). So when I finally got a girl to agree to have sex with me I was basically whipped. I was a sophomore and the girl was a few months older than me and very hot, but it turned out she was one of the easiest chicks in school. She was the one who asked me out. Of course I went in thinking it would be all roses and we would have the typical monogamous relationship. Of course it wasn’t in her nature. This was compounded by my lack of skills/experience in the bedroom. I tried arguing with her, reasoning, thinking if I treated her better she would change, breaking up, etc. But the allure of actually getting some (versus not get any), thinking she would change, and my low self confidence kept me coming back. Eventually I started basically putting up with, or ignoring her sleeping around. It was hell emotionally. The only problem was, while her sleeping around was making me extremely angry it also gave me an instant hard-on thinking about it. Of course this felt really wrong and left me feeling internally conflicted. It was a tough thing to go through as a teenager. We were together until a little after graduation then went our separate ways when college started. During that period she must have done at least 20 other guys (likely more). The sad thing is I never really got any good details out of it. I wish I knew what a cuckold was at the time, perhaps I could have gotten some details out of her. I heard several stories of her behavior from friends and she did some really wild things.
Written By: pnjnlove
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The only difference between previous relationships and my current marriage is that now it’s being done with my consent. My very first girlfriend (I was 17, she was 16) went with another guy behind my back. Like a mug, I took her back. And then she did it again. My first “serious” girlfriend, who I actually lived with, slept with a ski instructor on holiday. We split up over it. My next serious girlfriend slept with her ex a few times, and brought one of her college lecturers (a man old enough to be her dad) back to fuck him in our bed, several times. Again, I adored her so much I forgave her, and took her back, and she did it again too. I wouldn’t tolerate it after that: it upset me too much. But my wife says she fell in love me because she recognised right away that I had the potential to be the kind of submissive guy she could manipulate to get her way, even though I didn’t think I was. At least she took the time and love to train me to her way of thinking, so I’d accept and enjoy her fucking other men. This is why I refer to what’s happening now as cuckolding, but past experiences as just plain cheating. Maybe my past experiences conditioned me, set a pattern for the future? It must have had some effect…
Written By - DevoT
March 23rd, 2009 at 1:27 am
Trash, very kind of you to share your thoughts. When Lisa and I were in our early 20’s, we had friends that would visit us to drink beer on the weekends. However, there were 2 guys that she would give blow jobs to. She did not fuck them but would suck them till they blew. I was way ok with it, they were close friends. I am sure that those experiences in the early days of our relationship influence how comfortable her and i are with our polyamory lifestyle we have….Thanks again for sharing Trash.
March 23rd, 2009 at 8:11 pm
It’s so true. Our early sexual experiences tell us so much about ourselves. It’s in all the literature.
I myself I had some early sexual experiences… secretly cuckolding one of my first boyfriends… that now, as I look back, very much colored my later sexual interests. As I got older, and all through college, the boyfriends that I did not eventually cheat on were few and far between. Curiously enough, I eventually met and married a man who is today my sweet cuckold hubby. We’ve had our share of ups and downs, but our relationship has evolved to where we can now openly share all of our sexual kinks with each other. And it just gets better and better. It’s immensely satisfying to be married to a sweet wonderful man who accepts me for who I am… and lets me play!
Jenna
HotwifeJournal@blogspot.com
March 25th, 2009 at 8:20 pm
Manipulation ,imo, is not a process for love.In spite of that,its great that you’re marriage has worked out Trash
Its to bad you couldn’t stand up for yourself better back in high school and college. No woman is worth being degraded or disrespected for. There’s always plenty of them and one who will fall madly in love with you with no alterior motives. Hopefully,your confidence has grown so you don’t allow anyone to push you around.
There’s nothing wrong with enjoying your wife playing,since you are turned on by it. Consequently,i hope you’re assertive enough wherein you get plenty of pussy as well and not just leftovers.When opportunities arise,you go after them.Slyly making your way into a promiscous lady’s life after seeing or hearing her get fucked is far more gratifying than whacking off to it.JMHO.
Thanks for some riveting thoughts on your experiences Trash. Best wishes to you.
March 25th, 2009 at 9:42 pm
i used to “peep” through the wood fence at the perfect vantage point of an often open window of the next door neighbors, i would often catch a glimpse of the wife coming out of the bathroom and into the bedroom to change, occassionaly i would find them engaged in a pre-sex embrace and i could see the husbands back as he would thrust in an out of the wife, of course in any case i’d leave jerk off all over the fence…..one night while the husband was off on the road (truck driver)i made it out to the fence at my usual time around 9:00 p.m. to try to catch the wife changing and much to my utter shock and suprising pleasure was the back of a black man thrusting in and out of the wife…..i came in my pants without need of touching myself….
the second occasion was when a girl i dated in high school came back from summer camp and cried to me about how she had cheated on me and begged me to forgive her (she confessed because her cousin threatened to tell me if she hadn’t…another story) she had jerked off a boy on a hay ride….her excuse was when he took it out and saw how big it was there was no way she could resist…
i’ve been hooked ever since
March 26th, 2009 at 5:28 pm
Thanks for your comments JP, I should have separated them by name, which I have done now. Mine was the first one the other 2 are from different guys. But interesting thoughts none the less. I think I’ve been in control of most of my relationships despite taking an interest in cuckoldry. Never a push-over. I almost think I can be a very selfish partner when it comes to satisfying my own needs and kinks and hoping my partner gets satisfied by the fantasies I play with them and the extra sexual experiences they are getting. Thoughout my years unless my partners fantasies have been unconventional I lose interest very quickly…
March 26th, 2009 at 5:33 pm
And thank you Drew and Lisa, Jenna and Rob.
Great to hear you thoughts too..
Trash
February 13th, 2010 at 4:51 pm
I too started out with early experiences. I was going out with a girl while I was at school, I was 15 she was 17 and had already left school. She was going to a local sixth form college, we did the usual fingering, and snogging when we could, everything but fucking.
One day I overheard a conversation that she was going to one of the local discos and flirting around with this particular guy, and he used to give her a ride hope after. I used to cycle all the way up to her house which was in the middle of no where in the yourkshire moors, so i decided that one night I would wait on the road hidden, trying to see if thats all that happened.
There was only one road upto her house from the disco, so I waited in an area where I could get a good vantage for when they left the disco so I could follow. eventually I saw his car and waited for them to go past. It was only a few miles to her house down country lanes so it wasn’t long before I saw the car parked in the trees and bushes at an entrance to a field, a great place for me to see what was happening.
I threw my bike into the bushes and crept closer to the car, it was a hot summers night, as the song goes, and the car windows were open, i climbed up the grass embankment that the car was parked right next to and got a great view into the car on the passenger side. At first, they seemed to be just talking, then I saw his hand on her thigh, she was wearing a denim mini skirt and a lace top, dressed up slutty for the disco. they started kissing and his hand went up her skirt. clearly pulling her panties apart. This fingering and snogging went on for a while until he got out of the car, i thought, shit, he saw me, but he hadnt, he was taking his pants off and coming round to the passenger seat, meanwhile, Sandra was pulling her panties off and hiking her skirt up. She reclined the seat and layed there with her legs open, I saw her familiar smooth pussy and big sex lips as she played with herself while he stood and watched her. he then climbed on her and they started to fuck. I was blown away, this was better than watching porn, but was discusted at myself because I was watching my girlfriend get fucked by a guy, and didn’t understand why I liked it, rather than trying to punch the guys lights out. The had a great time fucking, this was around 1979 and condoms were not used very often, she was on the pill and that was the only worry in our area in those days. He eventualy came and they lay there for a while, suddenly he got up and walked round to the back of the car to open the boot. he was looking for something, she layed there in the passenger seat with her legs open, inspecting her swollen pussy.
He cam back with a large blanket and put it in the ground in front of the car in the feild, he beckoned her out and bothe stood their pulling the remainder of each others clothes of until she had nothing on but her shoes. i noticed he was sporting a huge stiffy again, and they went at it again on the blanket. I watched them, her legs wrapped round him pointing in the air, naked but for the shoes I had bought her that week for her night out, cheap but hot looking shoes. Hearing the sloppy noises as he fucked her hard, and the heavy breathing, was all too much, I was wanking while watching my GF get fucked in the very light night under full moon light, it was as clear as day.
Eventually it was all over and the collected themself together and he took her home. I saw her the next day, as usual, and said nothing, i didn’t want to cause a scene, and, i wanted to watch again!